Mirul's Journey

tuhanku.

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 17:41:45 GMT

i am down to earth.
ya allah, tabahkanlah hambamu ini.

sengkek.

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 14:00:50 GMT

first of all, aku nak mintak maaf sangat-sangat anhar,mamal, aku tak dapat
spent cuti christmas nie ngan korang macam last year.
anyway, christmas last year mmg best. Bukit Bintang terbaik.
takpe-takpe, macam kita janji the next time kita jalan depan pavi tuh,
the moment top of career masing-masing.
hahaha.

member aku sk cakap christmas kat singapore lagi super weh.
dia ajak aku this year, tapi aku takleh pegi duh. sengkek giler.
aku baru lepas beli modem broadband, subscribe semua, 300 habis.
skarang, aku tgh sengkek.
hahahaha.

ini hafiz yahya namanya. membe aku dkat Malaysian Airline Engineering Training Centre (METC)
dia baru kena dumped gak macam aku dgn gf dia.
aku mengerti. we are on the same boat.
petang tadi mengaduh kasih dekat aku through facebook.
mintak aku carikan gf baru.
katanya mau gerek.
gerek-gerek huh?
dalam class ko tidur, sama jea dari kelas kat mrsm dulu 5C, smpai lah
sekarang kerja ko tidur je bro!
sape-sape nak number phone dia, pm aku weh.
hahahah

Tup tup, masa cepat duh berlalu, dah nak abis pun 2009.
senior aku Ewin pun sudah mau on job training.
congratz bro.
3 gold bar atas bahu nanti kita yumcha

2009 nak abis, orang lain dah nak on job training,
tapi sortie aku tak kemana gak lagi. time panas instructor holiday.
time hujan gini lak ade pulak instructor nye tanak cuti pulak.
kalaulah aku boleh predict weather.
tak payah pg amik metar report.

aku browse-browse airliners.net tadi, aku jumpa gmbr nie.
patu termenung sorang-sorang.
bilalah aku dapat peluang nak kerja nie.
dah jemu dah duk kelantan nie.
naik tepu dah tgk crew residence ari-ari.
aku nak bawak umie abah naik first flight aku duh.
nak bawak dorang g umrah.
nak berdoa dekat depan kaabah, agar abah dibuka pintu
hati, terima umie semula,
aku nak family aku kembali bersama duh.
permudahkanlah uruskan ya allah.

lastly, 2 hari lepas aku hantar senior aku balik w.mju.
she was my senior masa dekat INTI.
tapi different course, dia ambik sains aktuarial x silap.
and she will represent INTI pg Cambodia untuk seminar IPTS x silap.

senior, enjoy ur trip pg cambodia.
hati-hati, dekat sana bila beli barang, banyak tipu.
and dorang pakai USD. agak mahal lah kalu nak spending.
jangan hilang, duk diam-diam belakang guider.
you dah lah kecik, hilang kejap jea.
oh ya, i promised i x beli cheese cake dah, nxt time i make sure
semua chocolate cake ok?
oh ya, sorry tak dapat bawak you tour whole area of my school.
i kejar masa, takut you terlepas nak boarding.
anyway, have fun dkat cambodia.
jaga diri elok2.

and its good to hear that you dah recover dari demam
syukurlah.
azmierul che mat.

kebosanan

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 10:15:51 GMT

I've lost all the inspirations to even think of what to write. Been kept busy slumbering in my room.
Most of my conscious time is spent in front of the PC (chatting and surfing nothing).
A perfect transition to become sampah, dont you think?

6 years ago...........

I was 12. Standard 6, very naive. One very strict Bahasa Melayu teacher to deal with 4 times a week, got my left ear pinched once because I forgot to put penanda wacana in my essay. Her name's Puan Robiha. I was so afraid of her, that I made sure I got A for her subject, which I did.

A friend tried to avoid me, by not speaking to me because his father asked him to.
Got busted outside the school compound eating cendol with me, the father was not happy.
He disapproved the friend to take even a step pass the school gate.
I kept on taunting him, following his steps by the end of each period, saying "I'm telling you. This wont work. You can never avoid me.
Come on, say babi at least once. Be normal," despite the silent treatment each time.
We were back as friends nearly a month later, and one day, as he was laughing to a joke, I was
suprised to hear "Babi la ko ni!" coming out of his mouth.
He's a medical trainee now. His father can smile.

bahagia.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:16:59 GMT

while browsing through abg shaha photo.
i found out this one lovely picture.
hahaha.

tetiba aku rasa nak jugak doh mcm nie.
best wooh. sabar azmierul, sabar, one day, one day.
punyalah x sabar, calon sorang pun takde lagi.
jum, tolong carikan calon.
fyi, abg shaha working for Singapore Airlines
and he is ex-mrsmkt stdnt.

thanks abg shaha for enlighting me into this aviation world.
and i'm so sorry for could not make it for LIMA this year.
insyallah
there'll be some other time.

thank god for giving me chance to get to know this aviation world.
syukurlah.
azmierul che mat

suffer

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 12:06:46 GMT

"The truth is, everybody is going
to hurt you, you just gotta find
the ones worth suffering for"

-Bob Marley-

manis pahit

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 08:10:54 GMT

"Pahit itu Penawar, Manis itu Racun"

sekali pandang aku tak pernah ambik kisah pepatah melayu nie.
tapi tak tahu kenapa semalam bila aku terbaca.
terkelu aku seketika.
baru aku sedar betapa betulnya pepatah melayu nie.
reflect dekat diri aku sendiri. aku susah untuk belajar dari
kesilapan aku sendiri sehinggalah salah aku itu makan diri sendiri.
by the time barulah aku terhegeh-hegeh nak sedar, nak kembali pangkal jalan.

rasa pahitnya peria baru aku nak telan.
tapi nasi dah jadi bubur campur ngan peria pahit.
kenalah aku telan. biarlah aku tak suka sekalipun.
bila semua benda jadi manis, aku akan hanyut kebiasaannya
bila makan cadbury, agak-agak gigi rasa sengal-sengal bru rasa
nak berenti, kalu tak, selagi ade, selagi itulah duk mkn.

cik aina, if you are reading this, please take a good care of yourself.
badan awak tak tahan lasak. awak tak sihat.
jaga keadaan sekeliling. dengan cuaca, kwsn bilik semua.
kalau tak larat, better stay dekat rumah. no point pegi class tapi x dapat study.
yes, mungkin byk awk akn missed tapi untuk long term, mybe
next week awak dah boleh sembuh bila dapat enough rest.
makan ubat, awak tu susah nak makan ubat.
nak telan ubat jea ada alasan. pahit itu penawar.
ubat itu sekali telan jea pahit, insyaallah sihat afterward
awak, jaga diri elok-elok. i know u hv a bleeding heart,
but at least do care about ur physical
study and your health always comes first.
i want to see you smiling again.
you have a smile tha can drag the world to smile too.
till then, take a good care of your health!
jaga diri elok-elok.

alhamdulillah walaupun dkat kelantan
asyik selalu hujan, ribut semua aku tetap sihat walafiat.

syukurlah.
azmierul che mat

emirate

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 07:44:17 GMT

ahad aritu awah pgi dubai lawat daddy dia working dkat sana.
since then no one temankan aku malam-malam.
plus dengan hujan hari-hari kat sini. memang takkan flylah agaknya aku
this month. Silap-silap trus tak fly smpai tahun depan.
xtvt aku spanjang minggu? tidur, online, main psp.(thanks aina adilah).
mmg boring gler ah duk mcm nie.
naik giler pun bleh.

since awah pg dubai.
aku sempat kirim 2 helai t-shirt emirate.
Thanks awah!
later balik, jumpa kat INTI, kita gie jalan-jalan cari makan.
ajak diba sekali. kasi kecoh keta you.
kita naik hummer daddy you ramai-ramai jum!

Seminggu dua minggu nie, takde benda nak ku blogging.
boring gler hari-hari di APFT nie.

azmierul che mat

unfold story

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 17:16:29 GMT

Aina Adilah Mohd Roose

awak,
if you still recall, this is the picture where everything started kan?
honestly first time i look onto this picture, i say to myself.
"I have to win her heart"

every after subuh i selalu on ym just because nak chat dengan you.
kemana pergi, i let you know by leaving a text fr you.
sampailah the day i nak pergi NS, and we met infront of your house.
yang mana actually our first meeting too.
the next day, i leave for NS, sebab asyik duk melayan ur sms, i tertinggal borang
NS atas kereta kak cik, Once kak cik gerak, terbang habis semua form NS i sambil
i terkejar-kejar dari belakang mintak k.cik stop the car. Macam pak pandir pun ada.

same time jugak, cik aina baru dapat lesen kereta, habis shah alam dirondanya.
Seminggu dekat NS, sy dah start mabuk rindu.
actually perasaan dekat NSlah yang paling seronok, every before nak pergi ke surau i call you kejutkan untuk solat subuh. and after lunch
before balik untuk berehat sekejap. I call you again.untuk wish you goodnight
malamnya. Hari-hari i call you again again and again tak pernah rasa
jemu. Tgklah phone card yang i beli untuk bergayut dekat public phone, byk giler.
hahaha.

Jan 25th 2009, was our happiest day kan?
i propose you to be my gf.
hahaha
*blushing*

dah lah you makan lasagne tak abis, lepas tu tak jawab pulak tu i tanya.
and balik rumah segan sgt2 sbb i have to call you again and
tanya sekali again of my proposal.
orang tua-tua kata diam itu tandanya setuju. After some time awk diam.
awk answer "ya" perlahan sangat2 sampai i barely hear you voice.
dalam hati saya dah
"degedegedegede"

i balik NS, awk ambik dkat stadium,
org lain family datang ambik, saya awak datang jemput.
bahagianya hidup berteman nie kan?
hahaha.

result SPM come out, and kita busy isi form macam-macam.
saya pulak, semua scholarhsip nak apply
biarlah result ciput pun, tapi tetap hantar jugak, and orang paling penat
dalam settlekan my application form awaklah.
awaklah yang isi borang itu ini, awaklah yang settle cop pengesahan saya.
awaklah yang drive saya kesini dan kesitu.
hasilnya ade 10 set permohonan yang saya mohon, dari scholarship The Star,
sampailah scholarhsip Bumi Armada.

one day, Bumi Armada panggil untuk interview, awak dgn seluar pink, berkemeja, temankan saya ke menara perak.
masa tu, saya tengah miskin. duit belanja umie abah belum bank in.
ada 50 ringgit tak silap dalam poket. Bekalkan 50 ringgit pergi intview ditemani awk.
lunch, lapar, nak makan byk duit tak cukup,
last-last beli satu set subway, then kita kongsi sama-sama.
seronok kan awk? maafkan saya, saya tak cukup duit untuk beli dua awak.
and terima kasih sgt sebab sanggup berkongsi dengan saya.
after that, kitaorang mencari menara perak.
Punyalah cari satu KLCC. Menaranya bukan main besar, tapi
perkataan yang stated menara peraknya besar mcm semut.
kecik giler. luckily sy ada navigator terbaik, Aina Adilah.
baliknya, saya dapat offer scholarship bumi armada.
bukan main gembiranya saya, ditemani awak,
yang penat menunggu dalam waiting room while saya kena interview.

sambil menanti untuk sambung belajar, hari-hari awak temankan saya
pergi lunch dkat pak mal, pergi shopping dkat Bukit Raja,
tgk wayang dkat sunway.

finally, keputusan untuk scholarship yang lain-lain pun turut keluar.
malamnya awak semakkan untuk saya, and call me.
"awak, alhamdulillah awak dapat biasiswa JPA"
i was so excited sampai tatau nak cakap ape, terjerit2 dekat rumah abah masa tu.

seminggu saya daftar dekat INTI untuk prep American Degree Program.
awak pergi convo abg lan dkat manchester.
seminggu tak dapat intouch dgn awk, sudd dapat this msg frm you through ms.

yay smpt on9. haha. skjp je ni. while waiting sumorg siap2. aina da siap ! power kan aina :D aina siap mula2. haha ;) hr ni, kitorg nk grak pgi Glasgow Scotland. 4 days there. hari ni grak, jumaat balik :) kereta pun dpt dh. tapaya da aina naik2 bus dgn ayah. huu pnat la naik bus. sit dia gila keras & tegak. tengkuk aina pun da bengkok2 da. huehue. nama kereta tu SAAB. haha ! kereta apa tatau. aina pggl kereta biru je. "nak naik kereta biru!" haha :p bising gila :p sjuk gila awk temperature kat cni. aina menggigil2. mnd air pns pun menggigil ! adeh. da psg da heater dlm toilet tu. huu. anythng nnt, aina txt awk oky ? ;) awk tcare ye kat sana. nnt aina balik,. aina bg brg2 kat awk k. ad 4 kut brg utk awk :) 3 cnfrm dh. 1 lg nnt aina nk cari. abglan kata dia kn bwk pgi York, ad factory outlet. so mcm murah2 kut :) ish jln2 kat city ni kan, mhl lah brg ! bnci gila. huu. mcm cntik dh nk beli kan, tp bila tgk hrga cm x worth lgsg. hish hish. k la sayang. nk pgi dah ni. I LOVE YOU ! i miss you sayangggg. nnt balik, kita jmp ye ? mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah xoxo !

sy happy sgt at that time. tuhan jea tahu how excited i am. Masa
yang sama jugak, i received letter dari APFT saying i accept into their pilot
training program. Subhanallah, sy jerit satu block dgr sampai kena marah
dengan guard dkat bawah. Terasa nak call awak dkat scotland masa tu jugak. tapi duit tak cukup nak call awak.
try-try, last-last dapat jugak inform awak sy accepted into pilot training.
usaha kita selama nie pergi ke putrajaya, hantar borang ke terengganu tak sia-siakan awak. Atleast who i am now is because of you.

tapi problem started arising. after i was accepted into pilot training prgrm.
our relationship getting worse.
it seems like i do not understand you and i demanded lot from you.
i lose my temper, and couldnt control of my bad anger.
i started to blame you this and that, pointing all the mistake done
by you. and telling that you do not understand me at all.

i started to shed ur confident and trust towards me.
i hurt you, treat you in a way that you does not like it at all.
until November 4th was my last day with you.
a month and a half for our first anniversary.
you cant stand of my bad temper and harsh words.
you give up. you lose confident. you hate me.
you ask stop bothering you. you ask me to stop contacting you.

"it always take a lost to appreciate"

and now i experience and understand it well of what people always saying.
i appreciate more people that surround in my life.
it doesnt cost you a single cent to appreciate them.
even they will bright up and colour your life.

awak, if you are reading this,
saya disini menyusun sepuluh jari memohon
maaf atas silap dan salah saya towards awak selama dari Dec 16 08
sampai Nov 4 09. sekiranya saya ada melakukan apa-apa yg menyebabkan
awak terasa hati, tersinggung dgn my words. dan segala salah silap saya.
halalkan makan minum sy for everything that you spent for me.
sekiranya diberi peluang untuk tebus segala salah silap saya.
i will.

terima kasih atas segala pengorbanan yang telah awak lakukan
in keeping our relationship for the past 11 month.
terima kasih in helping my dream come true.
saya percaya sekiranya awak tak hadir dalam hidup saya,
lebih banyak perit susah akan saya lalui.
hadirnya awak dalam hidup saya, banyak membantu, malah menceriakan
hidup saya. i know it is too late to say thanks to you.
but believe me, i am so thankful to god and proud to have you once
in my life. it is so meaningful to have you with me.
you are such a caring, helpful and joyful person.
your smile always make my day.
keep smiling because you have a passionate smiles.
thanks to god for giving me chance to get to know you.
terima kasih untuk segala pengorbanan awak lakukan for me.
saya tak mampu membalas budi awak.
insyaallah, hanya doa saya mampu hadiahi sebagai balasan
atas segala jasa budi awak dan keluarga towards me.

saya berjanji akan ikut cakap awak.
saya takkan ganggu awak lagi seperti awak mintak.
saya takkan kacau awak lagi.
awak, jaga diri elok-elok ya.
study rajin-rajin, awak nak ada degree kan?
jgn cepat give up bila orang provoke awk.
ingat, awak nak prove kan yang awak boleh independent.
saya doakan yang terbaik untuk awak.
semoga awak dimurahkan rezeki dan dipermudahkan dalam segala urusan.
Insyaallah awak akan bahagia disamping keluarga.

sekiranya awak perlukan pertolongan,
tak ada siapa disisi awak.
do bear in mind that you will always have me.
till then.

terima kasih awak.

"you cant get rid of it. and you will never get rid of it"
azmierul che mat

go away

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 15:10:55 GMT

"Listen this properly, i call you only to say this and i say once"
"Please go away. Jgn kacau sy lagi"
"Saya TAK NAK"

i called her.
ask if there is any chance for me to stay with her.
and do she really still want me.
and she reply me so.
now i know, for the past week begging and hoping
for her to come back, is totally rubbish for her.
the more i chase after her, the further she walkaway frm me.
because what actually i am doing is "kacau" her.
i am such a BIG loser

again.
azmierul che mat

hujan

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:46:03 GMT

sampai-sampai pagi tadi dkat hangar, semua aircraft masih lg tgh parking.
none of them pun towed to the apron.

Langit runtuh rupanya.
tgklah, cumulunimbus (CB) cloud tgh building.
sortie ku untuk minggu nie mesti cancel punyalah.
cuti seminggu, blik beraya haji.
yay!

syukurlah.
azmierul che mat